Sex

Love cravings

Love cravings

I am craving a sweet love

Silly, stupid, no safety net love

Foolish love

No worries about the future love

Summer love

Coldplay/billie kinda love

I am craving a connection

Uncomplicated

Simple

Beautiful

Silly

Honest

Free

I want all of this and more…

Rachel

If this is incoherent, it’s because the kind of love I am craving is. It’s stupid and beautiful love in its raw form!!!

Rachel

Would you date yourself? As you are?

Sometimes you have to call your own bull!

Own up to your shitty decisions!

Own up to your crap!

Admit that you are shitty sometimes!

Someone asked me today, would you date yourself? As you are?

Without much thought, I said “yes”.

But in hindsight,

Maybe I would like to be more decisive,

Maybe I would like to have more money,

Maybe I would like to be more patient,

Maybe I would like to be more inspired,

Maybe I would like to be more tolerant….

Whew!

I wonder how Mr Blue Eyes keeps up with my crap…….

rachel

Imperfectly Perfect Love

I love how he looks at me,

As if I am the only female in the whole space.

I love how he cares about my feelings,

I love how he honors my presence,

I love that he sees me!

Truly sees me!

I love him!

I love his sexy legs!

I love his green eyes!

I love his faith!

I love his tenderness!

I love his sexiness!

I love his soul!

It speaks the same language as my soul….

Most of all I am grateful he is here!

I am grateful he sees me!

I am grateful he loves me!

He is God’s perfection to me…

He is God’s love in human form for me!

I love you L….

Breathe and Let Go

Sometimes you will be the perfect friend

Perfect lover

Perfect companion

His peace of mind

All you know love to be.

It still won’t matter when the love was never there to begin with.

It won’t matter when your definition of love is not the same, forever might mean a day..

It won’t matter when you not in his future plans.

Understand this.

Accept this.

Don’t try change him.

Take yourself into your corner,

Cry if you must,

And gently remove yourself from it!

Why stay if there are no ingredients to serve your meal?

Breathe and let go

rachel

Lover

I am learning to write about love,

I know how to write hurt,

I know how to write heartache,

I know how to write disappointment,

I know how to write hate!

I am learning to write love.

I am learning to write happiness.

I am learning to write romance.

I am learning to write needing.

I am learning to write vulnerability.

I am learning to write handsome.

And it is all summed up in Us

I am learning to write about YOU!

My body is sitting here,

But my being is amongst the clouds,

My being is floating in the essence of your love

My heart is pumping blood,

But it’s not here,

It’s singing me love songs,

Songs of you my love

I am falling in love with you

❤️

rachel

Dear Ex Lover

Dear ex lover

You were never a lover, but for this poem you are.

Get up and go!

This body isn’t your church for you to cum and worship,

This body isn’t your chapel to cum and ask for forgiveness and speak in tongues, only to get out and sin again!

You can’t cum with your demons in this house, leave them in the street!

This is a holy place!

It is a temple!

My temple!

God’s temple!

Now,

Get up and go

rachel

30 before 30

As long as the food is offered, I will eat

You say you love me

I love you too

You say you will never hurt me

Neither will I

You say you are mine

I will take that

You show me you love me

I will take that

Loving someone doesn’t mean they love you back or will love you the way you want to be shown love. Some people will stay and eat at the table as long as food is offered, not because they intend to stay. It’s the responsibility of the cook to determine the intentions of the diner and decide whether to serve them or not. One wouldn’t want to serve a roast lamb to a vegetarian, that would be a waste wouldn’t it?

I have found this to be true in relationships. So I have decided to be celibate . I will dine alone for a while, explore my tastes and enjoy my own food. It’s tempting to invite others to stay but I’ve found some diners have no intentions of staying for the conversations and helping with dishes or a glass of wine. As long the food is offered they will eat it. Since I want to share my food not just a taster, I will be celibate.

rachel