Poetry

Love cravings

Love cravings

I am craving a sweet love

Silly, stupid, no safety net love

Foolish love

No worries about the future love

Summer love

Coldplay/billie kinda love

I am craving a connection

Uncomplicated

Simple

Beautiful

Silly

Honest

Free

I want all of this and more…

Rachel

If this is incoherent, it’s because the kind of love I am craving is. It’s stupid and beautiful love in its raw form!!!

Rachel

God is everywhere

God can be found anywhere you are

He is after all, everywhere we are

Today I found him in a concert, healing my broken heart. I didn’t even know my heart was broken. I found him, mending my heart and smiling at me….

He told all will be well…. I wept a little because I knew he touched me.

Isn’t it odd that God touches us at times we didn’t even know we needed him. He comes at the right time!!

Rachel

When love is not enough….

What do you do when you get back together with the love of your life? You hold the resentment, all their wrongs are remembered and the anger stews in your heart. You want to love him, you want to forgive him and get back to the original love you once had. You enjoy the same activities but that old euphoria is gone, you are just going with the motions. Truth is you don’t like him very much…

He looks like your old lover, smells like him but not quite him. The love-making suddenly feels like a non-consensual encounter. Your body rejects him, his kisses feel like being licked by a cat. His touch feels like being scratched by nails. The things that once made you fall in love him, just don’t feel right anymore! The judgement, the constant proving your worth, the not knowing when this love bombing will end, all of it annoys you.

What do you do then? Your mother and grandmother think he is the best thing after sliced bread. You don’t want to disappoint them, not giving them grandkids is enough disappointment! So what do you do then? You call your concubine and have a weekend rendezvous! You taste his sweet kisses and caresses, drink wine and pretend just for this weekend that you are not grown. You don’t have to be responsible! You don’t have to think about your mom and your grandma! You don’t have to live up to society’s expectations!Just you and your short lover! If only fantasies were real!!! For now though, let me get back to my cat kisses, ouch! There’s the touching….

Rachel Kazzim

Would you date yourself? As you are?

Sometimes you have to call your own bull!

Own up to your shitty decisions!

Own up to your crap!

Admit that you are shitty sometimes!

Someone asked me today, would you date yourself? As you are?

Without much thought, I said “yes”.

But in hindsight,

Maybe I would like to be more decisive,

Maybe I would like to have more money,

Maybe I would like to be more patient,

Maybe I would like to be more inspired,

Maybe I would like to be more tolerant….

Whew!

I wonder how Mr Blue Eyes keeps up with my crap…….

rachel

“It’s not just, there’s many of us”

Exorcism of her demons, he shouted; “there’s many,it’s not just me, there’s many of us here!”

He was talking about;

Greed,

Anxiety,

Insufficient,

Lack,

Restlessness,

Depression,

Fear,

All familiar friends that won’t let her rest…

What was she to do?

When from a young age,

She learnt what it means to not be enough,

What it means to not belong?,

What it means not to be wanted?,

What it means to not be smart?

Truth is,

The demons have been lying all along,

The universe had very much wanted her,

There are pieces of the sun in her smile,

Her eyes contain all the colors of the rainbow,

Her skin and the sky are host of the stars,

Her heart is the nucleus of the universe..

She has always been the universe coming alive!

And as the universe, there is many in her!

She houses so many!

Good and bad,

Just like the universe

At that moment, she asked;

“Don’t leave yet, please stay. What do you want to teach me?”

rachel

Autumn Mornings

The beautiful trees were willingly shedding their clothing, to be nude in the cold.

This was deliberate and necessary for the test,

A test on patience,

A test on surrender,

A test on strength,

A test on acceptable,

A test on trust,

A test on living…../

The trees undressed knowing the one responsible for living and death has got them. They know no matter how battered they are by the cold, it’s alright; they will either live or die. Whatever the outcome, the soul of the world knows it was there.

It was shade, it was oxygen, it was beauty, it was a landmark and most of all, it was the universe coming to life!

rachel

Mourning lost friendships

It’s ok to let the greatest love of your life go,

It’s normal to grow apart,

It’s ok to want different things out of life,

It’s ok to let them go.

I am letting you go,

I am not bitter,

I don’t hate you,

I was hurt,

But not anymore!

I wish you well!!

This is the hardest break up,

But it’s necessary,

Goodbye lover.!

rachel